Photo Friday! My Beautiful Flower Girl!

I know I've been talk a lot lately about the wedding we were all in this past weekend, and this is likely my last post about it... for now... 

I wanted to share me favorite photo snapped Of Delaney on the day... and there aren't many. She was great at church but once the rest of the day went on she slowly but surely went way down hill! 

She is 3 and I can't blame her for being tired and I should have expected a bit of a fuss but wow she did NOT want her picture taken.... She was scared of the photographer, she was scared of the camera (not like shes not used to them either...) but what ever happened that day, nerves, lack of sleep, too many people she didn't know, it all led to very few pictures of my darling flower girl... 

I was very concerned  that she was not co-operating and that she was causing such a fuss and eventually she went to my sisters house for a nap and a snack and  came back to the reception right as rain!

Luckily my Mom snapped a few of her while she was calm!

She was quite beautiful that day and I am sure it could have been worse than the few tears and screams that she let out but as a mom and the Maid of Honor I just wanted everything to run smoothly... 

Oh Well...

Have your kiddos been in weddings and had a tantrum? or have they refused to get their picture taken? (please tell me that someone out there has had this happen, I'm not alone right..... RIGHT!)

Tell the Truth Thursday! I'm not too posh to push!

Disclaimer:  This post is entirely my opinion and is based on my experience, my choices and my situation. If you agree or not it is what it is, and while I am open to opinions and comments I would appreciate that if you have a differing opinion that you state it politely and in a way that is going to make this woman, who is 9 months preggo, cry her eyes out all day... Thanks.

This is an issue that I rarely bring up with certain people, and never with strangers mainly because I get stared at... I get looks like I am crazy, like I'm doing something bad, I even get eye rolls and frankly I just don't feel like listening to it. So when people say happy pushing, or happy labor to you or hope that he comes soon for you, I just say "Awwe Thanks" and I leave it at that. 

But the TRUTH is, I am having a scheduled C-section on August 11th and I can't wait!

Our dear Delaney was born Via C-section after 17 hours of labor, 2 hours of pushing, intense pain because she was stuck with her chin and head on my pelvic bone. She was 9lbs 7oz and had a massive head...

So under the advice of my doctor (and a few medical residents) and my own research, we made a mutual decision to go ahead with a scheduled C-section this time around. I am not a very good candidate for a VBAC and frankly I didn't want to try and have the possibility of complications that would just lead to a C-section and the guilt I felt last time when I didn't deliver naturally. I completely agree with, and have said since my first birth experience that things don't always go as planned and you shouldn't blame yourself if you have to go an alternate route, as long as mom and baby are healthy that is all that matters. However in the moment and in the situation its much harder to feel that way, its hard to feel like its not your fault and that it was you who failed to progress or failed to do what your body was made to do, with all the hormones coursing through you at that moment after birth its hard not to feel that it is you who FAILED and then the guilt sets in. (maybe not for everyone but it did for me) And I just don't know that I would be able to deal with that, a newborn and a toddler at the same time.

So that is my TRUTH this week, I am having a scheduled C-section. No I'm not too posh to push, I just want to take the safest, healthiest option for me and my child's birth.

So are you brave enough to share a TRUTH that is a bit controversial? Have you posted about how you feel about an issue that may upset a few readers? Share it in the comments!

Help Wanted!

As you may have noticed, I haven't been baking or coking much and I certainly haven't been posting recipes on Make it Monday! 

Personally I don't like to post recipes that I haven't tried, which is why I don't want to just post a random recipe each Monday. 

I don't want to offer you a recipe that may never work or isn't truly tasty. 

That's where you come in!

I'm looking for a few good bloggers! 

YES that means YOU! 

If you have a great recipe(that you have tested and tasted) and you want to share here on Momma Made It! then I WANT YOU!

I also would love to showcase some new photos too, if you have a great photo that you want to share I want to share it too!

Please leave me a comment with a link to your blog or send me an email and let me know what you would like to share!

You never know how many new viewers and visitors you might get from just one guest post, and I'd love to highlight some other great bloggers. If you are new to the blogging scene or your an old pro I'd love to have you!

Reminiscing....

I am finding it very hard not to compare every symptom and event in this pregnancy to my previous one. 

I guess its extra hard for me because I am on pretty much the same time line as I was when Delaney was born, she was due on August 13th (born on the 21st) and Max is due on the 17th. I had lots and lots of braxton hicks contractions for about two straight weeks with Delaney and here I am again having them fairly regularly but not enough to go into or even think I'm in labor. I thought all along that Delaney would be born on Regatta day (its a holiday here in St. John's, there are rowing races and carnival games and its all held at a large pond in the east end of the city), she wasn't born on that day but I just thought she would be. That holiday is tomorrow.... and I am now wondering if maybe Max is planning on coming early and will greet us tomorrow... 

Its strange to me how you compare something that you and really no one else has any control over and you know that both experiences will be totally different, but you still use that previous experience as a measuring stick.  I know that there will be differences from my last pregnancy and this one, as well as birth and even raising this baby will be different but still I look back and think well if this happened last time maybe it will be similar, or  since that happened last time it will likely be the same. You'd think though, that since every part of this pregnancy has been so different, the nausea, the intense hunger, the intense thirst, hip and back pain, not to mention the threatened preterm labor I would realize that its likely not going to be anything alike. This baby may never sleep as good as Delaney did/does, he may never have any problems with breastfeeding, he may have a totally different personality and his birth may shock and surprise me all together

Maybe its human nature, maybe its the craziness of a pregnant lady but even though I know that each situation and each baby will likely be completely different I am still sitting here for most of the day each day, comparing and wondering if this time around will be similar...

Do you have kids? Did you think this way when you were pregnant? Did you or are you comparing a recent or current pregnancy to the previous? 

I'd love to hear all about it... Leave me a message in the comments!