Tell The Truth Thursday! I blame myself!

This is going to sound silly and irrational but I blame myself for things that are completely out of my control. 

I especially blame myself when Delaney gets sick.

Seeing as I am a stay at home Momma I feel it is my job to take care of my kids and my home and make sure that they are all safe. So when My child gets sick I feel like I have not properly done my job.

While Delaney doesn't get sick often when she does I find myself saying to myself, I should have watched her better, I should have made her wash her hands better, I should have not let her shake hands with strangers, I should have taken better care of her...

I feel like while it's totally irrational to think this way, what else can I think.I should know that kids get sick, I should know that kids pick up germs, I should know that I can't help that she will get sick (and max will too), I should, but I don't... 

It's almost sick the way that I blame myself, the way that I put myself down and make her illness my fault. 

It's one of the things that I have to work on as a Momma... 

 

I have a few things I have to work on as a Momma...

Do you blame yourself for things that you can't control when it comes to your kids...

Halloween Hijinks!

Well this is how our weekend leading up to Halloween started....

An awesome party at Best friends house!

I was an Artist... (shirt with paint on it and paint brushes in my hair...)

Dr. Daddy! (scrubs bought at the Sally Ann)

We were out till 1:30 am and had a blast! 

Chatted and danced and just enjoyed being kid free for a night out with all of our friends!

Then it took a turn for the worst...

Delaney and Max had stayed at Nanny's house for Friday night so that Momma and Daddy could go to the party, and apparently at 3 am Delaney woke up screaming that she had to go potty... turns out (TMI) she had diarrhea... not fun for Nanny and Auntie to deal with but she seemed fine and went back to bed. fast forward to Monday after a weekend filled with more diarrhea and vomiting (for the first time EVER) she seemed to be feeling a bit better and DEMANDED to go trick or treating! 

On a side note trying to explain to a three year old what throwing up is and why it happens is heart breaking... especially when she says "but I don't want to throw up" with her sick voice and a pale face.

So our Monday started out looking like this!

Our cutie trick or treaters!

Strawberry! She's Berry Sweet!

Captain Kirk! Trick or treating where no 2 month old has gone before!

Super cute right! (I might be bias but I think they are adorable!)

And our Halloween ended at the ER after Delaney vomited 6 times in one day!

We were told she had the stomach flu and just ride it out with Gatorade.

So after a full day yesterday of resting and only throwing up 2 times were all feeling a bit more at ease and a bit better too! So our Halloween Trick or Treating got postponed and we will be having Halloween Take 2 tomorrow with our friends and family...

Hope your Halloween didn't end up like ours!