Thursday, August 4, 2011

Tell the Truth Thursday! I'm not too posh to push!

Disclaimer:  This post is entirely my opinion and is based on my experience, my choices and my situation. If you agree or not it is what it is, and while I am open to opinions and comments I would appreciate that if you have a differing opinion that you state it politely and in a way that is going to make this woman, who is 9 months preggo, cry her eyes out all day... Thanks.

This is an issue that I rarely bring up with certain people, and never with strangers mainly because I get stared at... I get looks like I am crazy, like I'm doing something bad, I even get eye rolls and frankly I just don't feel like listening to it. So when people say happy pushing, or happy labor to you or hope that he comes soon for you, I just say "Awwe Thanks" and I leave it at that. 

But the TRUTH is, I am having a scheduled C-section on August 11th and I can't wait!

Our dear Delaney was born Via C-section after 17 hours of labor, 2 hours of pushing, intense pain because she was stuck with her chin and head on my pelvic bone. She was 9lbs 7oz and had a massive head...

So under the advice of my doctor (and a few medical residents) and my own research, we made a mutual decision to go ahead with a scheduled C-section this time around. I am not a very good candidate for a VBAC and frankly I didn't want to try and have the possibility of complications that would just lead to a C-section and the guilt I felt last time when I didn't deliver naturally. I completely agree with, and have said since my first birth experience that things don't always go as planned and you shouldn't blame yourself if you have to go an alternate route, as long as mom and baby are healthy that is all that matters. However in the moment and in the situation its much harder to feel that way, its hard to feel like its not your fault and that it was you who failed to progress or failed to do what your body was made to do, with all the hormones coursing through you at that moment after birth its hard not to feel that it is you who FAILED and then the guilt sets in. (maybe not for everyone but it did for me) And I just don't know that I would be able to deal with that, a newborn and a toddler at the same time.

So that is my TRUTH this week, I am having a scheduled C-section. No I'm not too posh to push, I just want to take the safest, healthiest option for me and my child's birth.

So are you brave enough to share a TRUTH that is a bit controversial? Have you posted about how you feel about an issue that may upset a few readers? Share it in the comments!

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