Well our little family is growing again!
We are expecting another baby this August and we couldn't be more thrilled! We let our families and close friends in on the good news before Christmas but wanted to wait to share it with the world until later when we knew things were going in the right direction, which my Dr. says certainly are!
The main reason we wanted to wait was due to our prior pregnancy losses. We lost 2 pregnancies in the past one at 14 weeks in 2006 and one at 16 weeks in 2007. On our first pregnancy miscarriage wasn't even a thought that had crossed our minds, I didn't know much about it and it was never something I really worried about. When I began to miscarry we went to the hospital and found out that the baby had stopped developing at 8 weeks and I had just continued to carry it until that point, on the second we were scared but when the Dr said that things were looking good, that my hormone levels were good and that we shouldn't worry we did our best to stay positive and as the 12 week mark came and went I felt better and then when we passed 14 weeks I thought we were in the clear, until I started to have pain and spotting again at 16 weeks. The ER doctor sent me for an ultrasound where they confirmed that I had a blighted ovum. Which basically means that there was no baby, the sperm and egg meet and begin the pregnancy but it usually doesn't develop passed that. It was traumatic and unbearable to deal with and even harder to decide when we wanted to try again or even if we were going to try again. We talked a lot about waiting a year or more but we decided to let it happen when it happened and with the guidance of my OB-GYN I started taking extra folic acid and also a low dose aspirin therapy to aid in implantation of a fetus and to help with blood flow to the uterus, and from there it just happened and we were blessed with little Delaney on our third pregnancy. I had a lot of stress when pregnant with her I was always worried that one day I would wake up and it would all happen again especially around the weeks that I had miscarried before.
This time around I have been feeling so different I was much more sick with this pregnancy than any other, I have been exhausted, nope not just tired exhausted, I have been experiencing pregnancy congestion with lots of sinus and ear pain, and just in general I feel so different. I had an ultrasound a few weeks ago and am so excited that things look good and sound good too... I have heard the heart beat 3 times now and couldn't be more pleased!
I do find that I am much less stressed out about a possible miscarriage, maybe its because I have my hands full with a certain 2 year old who keeps my mind and every other part of me occupied through out the day. Or maybe sometimes your body just knows things are working in the right order. I do wonder if other women felt this way after a miscarriage or two. I also wonder if they find it as cathartic to talk about there miscarriage as I do, It really is the best way for me to deal with it and to feel better about it as time goes on. If anyone out there is reading and wants to talk about there experience by all means I'd love to hear from you.